I’m beginning to wonder why as I look up to the sky and realize how everything is fake in my eyes and it’s like everything is in disguise, it’s all just lies and I apologize for thinking this way but my mind is full of toxic waste. 

I tend to sit back and fall into silence for my thoughts are not making any sense this is why I sincerely ask for your patience. I stare into space for I’m finding a place inside this head, a place of solace and calmness to bring me back from the world of madness and hopelessness. 

So here I am apologizing for the way I’m acting because I am ashamed to tell you that I am hurting.