Too Much To Ask by Niall Horan

I Built A Friend
by Alec Benjamin

The Way To Nowhere
by Alec Benjamin

Smother Me
by The Used

Hear You Me
by Jimmy Eat World

I Swear This Time I Mean It
by Mayday Parade

I Need The Sun To Break
by James Bay

Something I Need
by One Republic

I Will Follow You Into The Dark
by Death Cab For Cutie

Last Hope
by Paramore



Do I make sense when 
I open my mouth 
and tell you things 
a bit too loud? 

Things that are 
supposed to be ordinary 
but in a way I talk about it
sounds so silly. 

I mumble on my words 
but in my brain that’s 
not how it works. 

Constructed phrases 
come out as random verses—
It’s all a mess.

It’s a bit uncoordinated—
my mind and my lips
forgive me when there
are times my words slip. 

It’s best to read 
it on a paper
you’ll probably 
understand me better.


How’s it going everyone? Well, for me it’s been great, tiring but great. As I’ve said before I have a job now and I’ve been in it for more than a week. I’m learning a lot from it, I’m an accounting staff in a manufacturing company of light steel. It was kind of overwhelming for me because it’s kind of a big company and there are lots of paper works, I’m still trying to figure out how to be more organized and how to work faster because I’m still a newbie but other than that I’m surprisingly really enjoying everything that I’m doing right now because at first I thought it will be dreadful for me to go to work everyday but it’s actually not that bad lol. 
My view in working before was negative because it felt like we were all just conforming to the norms of the society, it still feels like it but when you enjoy what you do it doesn’t really matter anymore. I mean we all wanted to have a career in what we love to do but some of us are not that lucky or blessed and we can either work hard to do what we love to do or we can take another path where the opportunities are endless. It’s really our choice. I understand that now. Life will not just hand you things. I used to whine about how I wanted to have a career related to my passion but I’m not really doing anything to make that possible, I didn’t have the guts, I’m stubborn and I can’t sit and whine forever. It’s not about giving up on what I love to do but I guess my passion was meant to be used in another way. Right now all I can focus on is to enjoy everything that I have right now which I do, right now that is my main goal… to enjoy this life.


I got caught up at my new job that’s why I haven’t been posting. I’m still trying to learn all my duties at work, I’ll try to share it in an elaborated post hopefully this weekend. Almost a week of no writing/blogging/reading is really weird for me, I already miss it. 

I wrote this instantly when I got home from work and I’m really tired. I wish I could say more and I really just want to update my blog because it feels like I’ve been gone for a long time lol. That’s it, see you this weekend? maybe. 🙂 

Joana x


Lately I’ve been thinking…

A lot about my future and it’s a good sign because it means I intend to live a life and I intend to have a good one. Before I have this thinking what’s meant to happen will happen but now that I’ve landed my first job yes you read that write after deliberately “whining” here from time to time about how hard it was to get a job, I finally have a job now. It changed my mindset on things and in life. I’m officially an adult now and officially a corporate slave lol. It’s not going to be any easier and it feels like life is just starting for me. 

Lately I’ve been feeling…

Excited and nervous at the same time, tomorrow is my first day at work. I’m excited because it’s a whole new “game” for me and nervous because I don’t really know what to expect but right now the excitement weighs more than the nervousness.

Lately I’ve been wanting…

To start reading books again, I still haven’t finish my list yet that I had set 3 months ago and the last book that I had read was Sad Girls by Lang Leav that I wanted to write a reaction/review but sadly I did not had the chance to do. 

Lately I’ve been doing…

For the past weeks I’ve been busy going to job interviews and last week I finally got a job offer so I needed to submit the requirements which took up a lot of my time, adult life is really hard I must say but it pays off right? I’m an accounting staff and it was really hard for me to get a job because honestly I was picky especially with the position that I wanted and I know as a fresh graduate you’re not really in a position to be picky but I really wanted my first job to be aligned with what I studied (finance) and what I want for my career in the corporate world, this is a stepping stone for that. 

Besides all the job related stuff, I’ve also been busy watching series in between. I finished binge watching Game of Thrones and Designated Survivor. 😁 Great shows! 

Lately I’ve been hoping…

For a great career and hoping that my first day tomorrow will work out well (wish me luck). I’m just really glad that I’m not unemployed anymore, it’s quite depressing when everyone around you is busy doing something and you’re just sitting around, wasting other people’s money and having fun. 

I wish I could elaborate more on these things but I really don’t like doing lengthy posts. Anyway, have a great day everyone! 

How’s your life lately?