Half of me wants to conquer and the other half of me wants to suffer. I have these two sides frequently fighting to take over and to the latter I surrender. Like a tug of war, one side pulls and the other one pulls as well, I’m torn apart. It drives me crazy so I try to make sense out of it through this form of art.
I’m trying to reverse the weighing lever of suffering to the other side where I should be though it’s not easy for it’s just too heavy to pull and so I just hold on to it with every ounce of my strength hoping I won’t lose my grip, I’ll lose both sides if my hands slip.